It was beauty killed the beast

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Do you know one of those days when you feel more worthless than a piece of trash or you feel like you are the fattest and the ugliest girl to ever walk this earth? Yes. Always happens on a Friday night. I hate this, gah.

And to a certain someone, I'm sure you know who you are. I think you are aware of the change in attitudes of people towards you. Well, I tried to give you a chance yesterday but you didn't treasure it. Today, you pissed me off big time. What you did today may seem particularly minor, maybe insignificant but there's so much frustration and tension built up in me.

So, it seems like I'm overreacting. Frankly speaking, I am really pissed off with your lack of initiative and effort. Sometimes, you don't even bother to think with your brains and expect everyone on to treat you like a big baby, telling you exactly what to do or doing all the mundane stuff for you. I AM ANNOYED AND PISSED WITH YOU WHICH IS WHY I HAVE BEEN AVOIDING YOU.

On a lighter, happier note, we are done with the choreography of the belly dance today. It's awesome, amazing, sexy, and everything nice. Stayed back to work on it. Love it! Belly dancers FTWzzzzz. We are going to kick asses.

I can't be bothered with homework. Sylar DID NOT DIE. Fuck fuck fuck.New heroes emerging... Exciting.

xoxo,
SQ

Another day @ school

Graces is NEXT wednesday. Time flies, literally. Had our dresses checked today and haha, no one has the same coloured dress as me so far. I hope Newled doesn't get the same colour as me for all I know cosplayish girls like her are very attracted to bright and non-monochrome colours. But I doubt it, for she will probably go in black, her favourite boring colour.

Makeup's not settled. Neither is my ethnic costume. Anal.

Look at Kelvin Tan. ultimate slacker who gave us an hour of free period because he couldn't get the sound to come out of the speaker (that idiot). He is a horrible teacher even though Geography don't need much teaching.

Xiaotong and Yuxuan, decked out in sexy belly dancing gears. Why so shy? That's our outfit for belly dancing performance during lifeskills camp (Fiesta). I'm in the belly dancing committee too. :D Only eight belly dancers yo. Oh and Yuxuan's wearing the dress as a tube top. Way to go.

And see what Eric Tan did to our computer? He decapitated it because he thinks he's long enough to reach for the projector switch, even though he is not. At least we all had a good laugh. Lessons nowadays are getting really boring and difficult. Ah well, that's school for us.

Hugs and kisses,
SQ

Kranji War Memorial Outing

Smile, Mdm (supposedly) Leong

I'm hating Geography so much that I actually considered ponning the whole lesson today. But I'm being so paranoid, I just had to get back to class with Sarah to see if everything's okay. I don't want to get demerit points. It sounds horrible and Kelvin Tan is so not worth it. HE IS A FUCKING PERVERT AND A TEACHER WHO CAN'T TEACH AT ALL. Why is he even a teacher. Shall elaborate when I'm disentangle myself from my screwed up life.

Also, Kranji War memorial outing today, on a scorching afternoon of a fucking Friday. People keep on saying how sad they are feeling and yadayada but I don't feeling anything except lethargy and fatigue. The tour guide was telling us so many stories about the horrors of war, but it was simply too hot to concentrate, let alone feel anything about the many dead heroes. The point is to treasure the peace we have now, no use in feeling sad sad sad. Hypocrites.

Hugs and kisses,
SQ

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Yeah, if I were a boy, I would be peeing on girls who walk around holding one pathetic stalk of rose, parading around as if they were the best damn things on the street on 14 Feb.

This week was kind of busy. Wednesday was Yuhua Peer Tutoring Program after school. The secondary one students I was tutoring were adorable though we didn't get any work done.

Thursday was Sarah's birthday so we went along with the "suddenly-stand-up-and-sing-a-birthday-song" plan Minhui and I came up with. It went really well, giving both Sarah and Mdm Leon a shock. Their experssions were like: O: CLASSIC. There was Investiture so we got to slack for the rest of the time after lunch. Settled lunch at KAP with Yimeng and I felt so guilty eating strawberry sundae with a McChicken student meal. It did make me happy though.

Valentine's Day Eve: Gift exchanging frenzy was going on. It had never been of any significance to me (valentine's day I mean) so I didn't get anyone chocolates or presents. But still thanks to people who gave me gifts and an apple from Ping Ting!. I ate ALL the chocolates. (: CCA afterwards, whereby my juniors showed some love. So more chocolates yay! Alexander Jones is like our teacher-in-charge now but he will probably leave us again. ): He reminds me of a hamster! Even though I didn't talk to him, he's a cute thing to look at.

xoxo,

SQ

Yummy little men.

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Yesterday we had a talk about Graces. Not exactly though but we were learning about stuff that guys don't like about girls. (Like VPL, too much makeup, messy hair... etc etc) But I'm dreading the so-called formal dinner. I don't like formal, I hate dresses, I hate heels. Urgh. They should just send us off for some bikini bootcamp or whatever. And Michelle wasn't in school because she's happily collecting angbao in Malaysia, lucky lucky lucky.

Our own CNY picnic: Michelle, Rachel, Kelly, Siman, Jingfang, Minhui, Sarah and Liyi with her sexy voice. We were exchanging CNY goodies. We had our little picnic by the fish pond. Oh my god, my heart ached. I miss our old classroom SOOOOOO much! Don't need to climb stairs and we could eat outside the classroom because it is considered ground level. Why the fuck do we have to change? ):

With love,
SQ

Monday blues

First of all, happy birthday to you, You Jia! I know what are kind of drifting apart now but still, have a really sweet sixteen!!! Xoxo And also TONGMENG, happy legal birthday! I love you tonnes. Thanks for always listening to my rantings and bitching. Muackssss gossip partner!!!

Today was rather boring. (All Mondays are anyway.) So the regular mundane stuff we have to start getting used to. The don't talk about it remainder/factor theorem quiz and the I don't give a damn chinese letter we had to write about education shit. Then it was PE. It's seriously darn fun like I don't mind playing tennis for an entire day.

Siman came over after school to do homework. She's pretty darn proud of her history assignment. I was helping her do the vintage effect thing to her newspaper report about pissed Germans, burning the paper (almost burning the house down) and dabbing coffee. I told her to take my help as a way of thanking Shirlene Tieh for helping me pass history. She better love vintage and give Siman A1 for the assignment. (My dad wasn't happy about us using up 2 boxes of match!)

Hugs and kisses,
SQ

TGIF

Ice cream + friends

Awesome combination. (L's coolest nightmare)

Love, SQ

An afternoon of spastism

Mdm Leon's back today after being sick for two days? And James Tan had to come in during class contact time because we ain't got no form teacher nor co-form teacher. Pathetic. Geography was hilarious. This 18-year-old dude called Mr Huang was our relief teacher. I cannot stand him because he is so random/spastic/weird. He teaches Geography like he's telling us a story about the medival times when knights go round hunting for hot princesses. The worst time was he actually rolled his eyes. Twice. Once at Sarah for bursting out laughing and then at me when I asked a nonsensical question and broke his train of thoughts. Hahah, serve him right.

Siman came over after school today to do homework. Well we didn't really do much but we did homework. Somehow, teenagers our age are easily distracted so we ended up doing some major facebook album stalking. And then we saw Sarah LME's album and Siman was giggling like a currypuff, going crazy because the effects were quite spastic. Hahah. So I was like, "Hey, I've got a software on my bro's laptop that can take this type of pictures."

We ended up:

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I have to rush Chinese SIA. Shit, I've got to start going at supersonic speed and pray that people stick to the schedule so that we won't be dead on Friday. I'm crossing my fingers!

With love,

SQ

Weighing scale, talking pillows

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Yesterday accompanied my dear Siman to expo (at another end of Singapore) for some metro sale thing and we ended up feeling very disappointed because the clothes there were either auntie or plain hideous. So we left with only a ten dollar dress each.

But, we ate a lot. Donuts + fried chicken + ice cream. Then we came to school and realise we have to take height and weight. OH DANG. So I'm like fucking heavy and to make matters worse, I shrunk by 1cm. ONE FUCKING CM. Please tell me that this is not scientifically possible and its the damn machine that is screwed. Pfft.


xoxo,
SQ

Feels like superman

Spot check today. Luckily I've worn my shortest skirt yesterday and I was left with the longest skirt today so I wasn't asked to "unroll" my skirt when in the first place it wasn't even "rolled". I fucking don't like people who think they are right even when they are not.

During IH, Kevin Yong rocked back on his chair and told me that he felt like a student, sitting in Ching Ying's place. I misheard it as "I feel like superman" and got Rachel in her random burst of laughter again. Sweet.


TGIF.

Love,
SQ

Breakaway

Had Math retest today because I failed my block test. Though not as terrible as some others but still bad nevertheless. Before that, I was busy practising some problems during Chinese and LA lessons. Originally, I planned to practice functions during Geography but ended up playing true or dare with Michelle, Sarah, Liyi and this china scholar whom I do not know.

I think all the stress is getting to us and we couldn't stop laughing. Good thing Mdm Chia was in a good mood. She must have thought that we were crazy, laughing so hard throughout her whole lesson. Poor woman, we've got to cheer her up a bit in her boring job sometimes.

I'm starting to love my seat at the corner of the world. It just feels so safe and serene there. And Rachel is an awesome tablemate.

The Promenade at Hove.

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The day started out with my mother waking me up at 6 am, completely forgetting about the Monday "sleep-in". I was still relatively "drunk" from rushing Sicko essay all night last night, hence not able to remember that school starts @ 0830 today.

I tried going back to sleep but had to wake up after a mere 15 minutes, with me all cross-eyed and grumpy. I played with the idea of skipping school since my parents are out but I'm a good girl w morals. Advice for all, don't wake up, sleep again and expect yourself to be more awake. That is not the case.

School was wasted. I couldn't concentrate yawning so much, thinking about my bed. I guess I have to start adjusting myself to the torturous school hell once again. The Yuhua Peer Tutoring Program today was an utter waste of my afternoon. Turned out there was more than enough tutors. Of course, who in the right mind is in the mood for Mathematics first day of school? But I do feel sorry for the teachers who helped coordinating this program though. They are like brides waiting for their husbands and sons who will never return. I feel utterly wasted. Let's hope things are going better soon.

Lots of love,

SQ