It was beauty killed the beast

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Do you know one of those days when you feel more worthless than a piece of trash or you feel like you are the fattest and the ugliest girl to ever walk this earth? Yes. Always happens on a Friday night. I hate this, gah.

And to a certain someone, I'm sure you know who you are. I think you are aware of the change in attitudes of people towards you. Well, I tried to give you a chance yesterday but you didn't treasure it. Today, you pissed me off big time. What you did today may seem particularly minor, maybe insignificant but there's so much frustration and tension built up in me.

So, it seems like I'm overreacting. Frankly speaking, I am really pissed off with your lack of initiative and effort. Sometimes, you don't even bother to think with your brains and expect everyone on to treat you like a big baby, telling you exactly what to do or doing all the mundane stuff for you. I AM ANNOYED AND PISSED WITH YOU WHICH IS WHY I HAVE BEEN AVOIDING YOU.

On a lighter, happier note, we are done with the choreography of the belly dance today. It's awesome, amazing, sexy, and everything nice. Stayed back to work on it. Love it! Belly dancers FTWzzzzz. We are going to kick asses.

I can't be bothered with homework. Sylar DID NOT DIE. Fuck fuck fuck.New heroes emerging... Exciting.

xoxo,
SQ

Another day @ school

Graces is NEXT wednesday. Time flies, literally. Had our dresses checked today and haha, no one has the same coloured dress as me so far. I hope Newled doesn't get the same colour as me for all I know cosplayish girls like her are very attracted to bright and non-monochrome colours. But I doubt it, for she will probably go in black, her favourite boring colour.

Makeup's not settled. Neither is my ethnic costume. Anal.

Look at Kelvin Tan. ultimate slacker who gave us an hour of free period because he couldn't get the sound to come out of the speaker (that idiot). He is a horrible teacher even though Geography don't need much teaching.

Xiaotong and Yuxuan, decked out in sexy belly dancing gears. Why so shy? That's our outfit for belly dancing performance during lifeskills camp (Fiesta). I'm in the belly dancing committee too. :D Only eight belly dancers yo. Oh and Yuxuan's wearing the dress as a tube top. Way to go.

And see what Eric Tan did to our computer? He decapitated it because he thinks he's long enough to reach for the projector switch, even though he is not. At least we all had a good laugh. Lessons nowadays are getting really boring and difficult. Ah well, that's school for us.

Hugs and kisses,
SQ

Shopping for grace

This weekend was not as productive as I expected but at least I managed to get homework and some revision done. For that, I gave myself a pat on the back. However, I succumbed to tempations again and watched four entire episodes of "Heroes". Guilty! The storyline is getting increasingly complicated and twisted and dark which really appealed to me, which is why I'm so addicted to it. (SYLAR...)

Heroes aside, I managed to buy killer heels and a dress today after shopping with Siman. So did she. I realised that walking in heels ain't as easy as it seems. For my case, standing upright with my heels elevated an inch above the ground proved to be as challenging as moving mountains. Okay, I may be exaggerating a little but you get the idea that I may fall face down during class parade. Get your sadistic laugthers ready.

But... I will heed Siman's advice to break the heels.

We had a whale of fun today even though my back and feet are protesting. Siman is such an amazing companion :D

Kranji War Memorial Outing

Smile, Mdm (supposedly) Leong

I'm hating Geography so much that I actually considered ponning the whole lesson today. But I'm being so paranoid, I just had to get back to class with Sarah to see if everything's okay. I don't want to get demerit points. It sounds horrible and Kelvin Tan is so not worth it. HE IS A FUCKING PERVERT AND A TEACHER WHO CAN'T TEACH AT ALL. Why is he even a teacher. Shall elaborate when I'm disentangle myself from my screwed up life.

Also, Kranji War memorial outing today, on a scorching afternoon of a fucking Friday. People keep on saying how sad they are feeling and yadayada but I don't feeling anything except lethargy and fatigue. The tour guide was telling us so many stories about the horrors of war, but it was simply too hot to concentrate, let alone feel anything about the many dead heroes. The point is to treasure the peace we have now, no use in feeling sad sad sad. Hypocrites.

Hugs and kisses,
SQ

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Yeah, if I were a boy, I would be peeing on girls who walk around holding one pathetic stalk of rose, parading around as if they were the best damn things on the street on 14 Feb.

This week was kind of busy. Wednesday was Yuhua Peer Tutoring Program after school. The secondary one students I was tutoring were adorable though we didn't get any work done.

Thursday was Sarah's birthday so we went along with the "suddenly-stand-up-and-sing-a-birthday-song" plan Minhui and I came up with. It went really well, giving both Sarah and Mdm Leon a shock. Their experssions were like: O: CLASSIC. There was Investiture so we got to slack for the rest of the time after lunch. Settled lunch at KAP with Yimeng and I felt so guilty eating strawberry sundae with a McChicken student meal. It did make me happy though.

Valentine's Day Eve: Gift exchanging frenzy was going on. It had never been of any significance to me (valentine's day I mean) so I didn't get anyone chocolates or presents. But still thanks to people who gave me gifts and an apple from Ping Ting!. I ate ALL the chocolates. (: CCA afterwards, whereby my juniors showed some love. So more chocolates yay! Alexander Jones is like our teacher-in-charge now but he will probably leave us again. ): He reminds me of a hamster! Even though I didn't talk to him, he's a cute thing to look at.

xoxo,

SQ

And the colours matched

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN, SIMAN!

Friday

was suprise birthday (cake) party. Kelly, you haven't told me about the super fail plan! And the reason why I missed out the fail plan is because of Yuhua Peer Tutoring thing and the a*** teachers in charge. NAG NAG NAG NAG. Yeah, a bunch of people were present. Cake was delicious thank you Rachel! Rena and Sarah LSE lives of the party, managed to get everyone squealing and running around. Cake and water fight ensued. It was hella fun. (: Hope we make you happy, Siman!

Saturday

was flag day. I enjoy doing CIP very much. I did something different with my hair and Yuxuan and Xiaotong was super shocked, didn't recognise me. Nah, I won't chop off my hair. Yingxuan got us all salivating over her pepper lunch.

So I teamed up with Siman to collect donations outside Bugis Junction.

MC Mongs/Blonde hair cutie/Shaggy rock star/Cigarette gangster
Heartless fuckers/Loving couples/Friendly daddies/Cute uncles
Loser ah lians and ah bengs/Fried chicken/Sundae/MRT rides
heavy tins :D

Basically that sums up the highlights of our day. I love flag days!

Sunday/Today

STUCK AT HOME DOING HW OH DANGGGG IDL IH SIA )))))):

Love,

SQ

Yummy little men.

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Yesterday we had a talk about Graces. Not exactly though but we were learning about stuff that guys don't like about girls. (Like VPL, too much makeup, messy hair... etc etc) But I'm dreading the so-called formal dinner. I don't like formal, I hate dresses, I hate heels. Urgh. They should just send us off for some bikini bootcamp or whatever. And Michelle wasn't in school because she's happily collecting angbao in Malaysia, lucky lucky lucky.

Our own CNY picnic: Michelle, Rachel, Kelly, Siman, Jingfang, Minhui, Sarah and Liyi with her sexy voice. We were exchanging CNY goodies. We had our little picnic by the fish pond. Oh my god, my heart ached. I miss our old classroom SOOOOOO much! Don't need to climb stairs and we could eat outside the classroom because it is considered ground level. Why the fuck do we have to change? ):

With love,
SQ

Proud as a chinese

Happy chinese new year (eve) to all of you loved by me! To those that I hate, please have a shiteous year of the ox, tyvm.

Thursday

There was health checkup so we didn't have to do zuowen! Damn happy so we were all fooling around, having the time of our lives:

I had to put this up because jingf looks so happy.

Friday

Huichun was suprisingly fun and we quickly get it over and done with and went to play. I seriously am in love with 411'09! After the horribly cliched CNY celebration, I went back to Rulang. Pathetic, it was only me and Yulin. Absence make the heart grow fonder. I miss miss miss Yulin so much my heart ached. BFFs! Oh and pls pls come to HCJC, then we can be together! Chatted for hours, non stop. I ate a lot and felt incredibly guilty because Yulin ate like 1/4 of what I ate.

Saturday
I attempted to finish holiday homework, halfway through feeling really fucked up in the ass. Come on, it's HOLIDAYS! However, I enjoyed doing ISL.1 though. Then went to get CNY supplies (pineapple tarts and love letters!) and ate dinner outside. O: *YAWN*

Sunday/Today
Semi reunion lunch @ my granny's house. She's the only woman alive capable of making veggies taste awesome, I swear. Semi because only my family turned up which is quite sad. And judging by the angbao money I am receive, the economic downturn really fucked asses. Please please, I need money! Hopefully better luck tmrw when I put on my hypocritical smiley face and start saying happy chinese new year to relatives in a sickeningly sweet voice. Urgh.

Oh and I shall resist new year goodies. But I'm eating steamboat later, yummy!

This is beauty, girls.

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For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge you’ll never walk alone.

-Audrey Hepburn

Monday blues

First of all, happy birthday to you, You Jia! I know what are kind of drifting apart now but still, have a really sweet sixteen!!! Xoxo And also TONGMENG, happy legal birthday! I love you tonnes. Thanks for always listening to my rantings and bitching. Muackssss gossip partner!!!

Today was rather boring. (All Mondays are anyway.) So the regular mundane stuff we have to start getting used to. The don't talk about it remainder/factor theorem quiz and the I don't give a damn chinese letter we had to write about education shit. Then it was PE. It's seriously darn fun like I don't mind playing tennis for an entire day.

Siman came over after school to do homework. She's pretty darn proud of her history assignment. I was helping her do the vintage effect thing to her newspaper report about pissed Germans, burning the paper (almost burning the house down) and dabbing coffee. I told her to take my help as a way of thanking Shirlene Tieh for helping me pass history. She better love vintage and give Siman A1 for the assignment. (My dad wasn't happy about us using up 2 boxes of match!)

Hugs and kisses,
SQ

TGIF

Ice cream + friends

Awesome combination. (L's coolest nightmare)

Love, SQ

An afternoon of spastism

Mdm Leon's back today after being sick for two days? And James Tan had to come in during class contact time because we ain't got no form teacher nor co-form teacher. Pathetic. Geography was hilarious. This 18-year-old dude called Mr Huang was our relief teacher. I cannot stand him because he is so random/spastic/weird. He teaches Geography like he's telling us a story about the medival times when knights go round hunting for hot princesses. The worst time was he actually rolled his eyes. Twice. Once at Sarah for bursting out laughing and then at me when I asked a nonsensical question and broke his train of thoughts. Hahah, serve him right.

Siman came over after school today to do homework. Well we didn't really do much but we did homework. Somehow, teenagers our age are easily distracted so we ended up doing some major facebook album stalking. And then we saw Sarah LME's album and Siman was giggling like a currypuff, going crazy because the effects were quite spastic. Hahah. So I was like, "Hey, I've got a software on my bro's laptop that can take this type of pictures."

We ended up:

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I have to rush Chinese SIA. Shit, I've got to start going at supersonic speed and pray that people stick to the schedule so that we won't be dead on Friday. I'm crossing my fingers!

With love,

SQ

Weighing scale, talking pillows

When I am lonely @ night, they talk. [source]

Yesterday accompanied my dear Siman to expo (at another end of Singapore) for some metro sale thing and we ended up feeling very disappointed because the clothes there were either auntie or plain hideous. So we left with only a ten dollar dress each.

But, we ate a lot. Donuts + fried chicken + ice cream. Then we came to school and realise we have to take height and weight. OH DANG. So I'm like fucking heavy and to make matters worse, I shrunk by 1cm. ONE FUCKING CM. Please tell me that this is not scientifically possible and its the damn machine that is screwed. Pfft.


xoxo,
SQ

Goodbye kisses 08

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Wow, time flies. Everyone in the whole entire world will age by a year tomorrow. I'm having mixed feelings right now. I know I will miss 2008 very much but on the other hand I'm getting all excited over the prospect of a better 2009.

To sum 2008 up in one sentence:
It has been a fantastic roller coaster ride, full of ups and downs.

No one made fun of me in my new class, which turned out to be my most loved class in my life. I didn't fail school and I managed to get 3 As.:D I came back from Shanghai in one piece. I've learnt so much about friendship. Most importantly, this year I learnt to always be true to myself.

And of course the many unhappy incidents I've encountered. Getting all mad at Delwen for reasons I find rather stupid right now. I'm really sorry. Then I got rashes, thank god its okay now. I'm sure there's more but I've already make myself forget about all these unhappiness. The greatest one of all is really my relationship with my mom this year, its the pits. I cannot stand her, she hates me, I wish she wasn't my mother, she wishes her friend's genius daughter was her daughter instead. ): Hmm, I really really hope things won't be so strained next year.

Alright, I'm so ready for 2009. (Okay maybe not, my hair still sucks.) And my one and only new year resolution: BE MYSELF, DON'T TRY TO BE SOMEONE I'M NOT. (:


YAY HAPPY SEXY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
ALL THE BEST FOR 2009!

Bugis Street/Orchard Road

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Real theraputic day,apart from my aching feet. Retail therapy!!!

It was girls' day out for Jiali and I. Shopped at bugis street first. Walked round and round and round, realising that most of the stuff are the same. Bored, we flew over to Orchard for lunch. We broke souls have to eat at Mcdonalds (full of calories) and pay by ezlink. Shopped a lot after that. I didn't really bought much stuff from Orchard because I can't afford the nice stuff and the affordable stuff are all fashion crap. Serious trash, eww.

Oh and I ran into Sarah(ME) there. Talk about coincidence!
Jiali and I were having tonnes of girly fun, trying on very expensive clothes that are over a hundred bucks. Overpriced trash some of them. We shopped for like 5 hours straight and my legs felt like they were detached. Poor Jiali had to try and keep up with my pace in her killer pumps. (Blisters galore!) But we have one conclusion, the pain is all worth it. I HEART SHOPPING!

Hugs and kisses,
SQ

Wild Child

If you ain't taking geography, consider yourself extremely BLESSED. On top of chinese and IH projects, we have a humongous geog sia thrown at us. And holidays are so bloody hard to meet up and get some actual work done. And the last time I checked, 'holiday' does not have (home)work in its definition. As if we are not fucked up enough.

Today, went out with Gen to watch 'Wild Child'. My, Emma Roberts really all grown up and gorgz. Lucky bitch, she's so skinny! Don't remind me she has a movie star aunt. The movie is a rather nice. Shall not elaborate but let's just say its a typical chick flick about friendship and stuff... Gee, I miss hanging out with Gen. She's an amazing person but I kinda feel we are drifting apart though. She's like the only person in 202 that I'm closest to. Just thinking about the many friends I've drifted away from makes me really sad. Next year, I'm gonna start remembering birthdays. (:

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Also we went shopping, window shopping to be exact. I saw lots of Paul Frank! Yay, I'm happy. Gen also agreed Paul Frank is cool and totally cute! Wait till shopping trip with Jiali, I'm gonna let loose the shopaholic monster in me now that I've got more cash in hand.

Love,
SQ

twenty one

Enjoyed myself v much ytd, spending almost a day at siloso beach, sentosa. The sky was gloomy at first and I feared that it would start drizzling. Of course, the old man up there wouldn't let it happen to me on my birthday, thank god.

Siloso beach in the morning was heavenly. Quiet and deserted, you don't have to worry about volleyballs or frisbees hitting you on the head while taking a walk along the coast. I could just faint when the sea breeze carressed my face and played with my hair, my frizzy hair i know. I actually swam out into the ocean, not really but far enough from land. It made me feel happy and free, like theres no barriers to control me.

There was this time when i was at a very deep part of the beach, I dived down and saw like this huge black form which i wasn't sure what it was but it scared me. Actually, it wasn't the 'thing' that scared me, it was the many horrible thoughts swimming around in my brain that frightened me. My guy friend who was with me with said he felt this scaly thing brushed his leg. O:

Sentosa luge & skyride was AWESOME. I've been there like for gazillion times and I've never gotten sick of it. Its spectacular at night with the vibrant lights dancing around, whizzing past as my luge zoomed past at high speed. I wished the track was two times longer though because i certainly can't get enough of it!

While on the skyride, this grasshopper somehow landed on our seat and it was crawling towards me! I screamed bloody murder but i couldn't do anything. Its horrifying. Here I am hanging in the midair, helpless and this right green monster is advancing towards me. Six legged! O: Of course, I was shrieking and yelling and the stupid guy operating the ride had the nerves to laugh at me. It's not very funny.

With Love,

SQ

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Kewl kids on a field trip.

Past three weeks have been the most exciting days of my life. Being away from my parents for more than a week is a major milestone for me. Yes, I'm indeed mature and grown up to take care of myself and make my own decisions.

Thanks to awesome people Jiali, Yuxuan, Siman, Jiayin, Xinyi, Jessica Choo and many others for making my trip really enjoyable. I seriously cannot imagine what it would be like without you guys. (:

Our class seriously disappointed us at first. Well, we were partly at fault to have such high expectations of them. Afterall, they were having their exams and were too busy to care about us. However, after a while, they opened up. Which made us really happy cos like what Siman said, its because of their dao treatment that make us feel even happier when they open up. So I'm okay with that la. Learnt many things from this trip. E.g. Don't ever ever leave a friend out, its extremely hurting. Sorry my love. Close friends as you call them, can be very insulting sometimes and they don't even know it. Don't fall for the hot guy, go for the nice guy instead.

ETC ETC.

I miss the weather there. Singapore is so hot as compared to Shanghai. I kinda prefer the colder weather. At least I won't have rashes. (Unless I'm sick.) Also, in Shanghai, all we do is slack, walk around, eat, stone and sleep. So carefree, away from all the school crap and homework. No wonder I don't want to go home la. See, now have to worry about SIAs. Pffft.

The best thing about this 3 week trip is that we were free. Without parents, even the teachers don't really care about us lor. Damn shiok la. I can do anything I want/go anywhere I want/buy anyshit I see/eat any crap I find. Yeah, I definitely like this lifestyle. That's why I wasn't very happy when we were nearing the end of the trip. Back to being caged up again...

Love,
SQ

你好，我回来了。

HELLO, I FUCKING MISS SHANGHAI.

GEE, I woke up this morning wondering where I was and hoping fervently that I'm still in Shanghai. I really really really really really miss Shanghai. The past 3 weeks had been a blast, full of ups and downs. Everyday is just exciting and full of surprises.

I WANNA GO BACK...

Shanghai Nights.

Hey y'all. I've been in Shanghai for ELEVEN days alr!!! Time CRAWLS by here, literally. What can I say, almost everything here is so different from Singapore and yeah, I like changes so everyday's pretty exciting to me.

The food is nice but they serve them in such humongous quantity here. No wonder the people are so well developed. I think I've probably gained. I haven't mentioned this but the place I'm staying at require me to climb six freaking floors to reach. Majority of the group get to stay in this other building which was only four/five storey with a elevator. Don't remind me that we paid the same.

But at least I have JL, Siman, YX and JY w me. The class we are currently attached to seems unaware of our existence. So every morning, we attend classes and ended up being bored out of our minds. How incredibly hospitable of them.

I shall update next time. People here have no sense of privacy and I can feel a bunch of guys staring at my screen behind me now. I'm missing Singapore and the awesome people here. I miss 311. I really need subtanning. It's freezing here. BRRRR.

Lots of kisses,
SQ

ZOMG BYE LOVELIES

Flying of to Shanghai in less than 24 hours, baby!

Night lights. [source]

Like I expected, anal mom scolded me for my results/report book. Nothing I do can ever satistfy her. I fucking hate her. Not even when I'm improving. 21 days away from her. I won't miss her. I definitely will NOT miss her. I think I might just like run away with some china guy. Then, I will never ever have to see/hear her ever again.

My grandmother just gave me a 100 bucks to cheer me up. I love her so much.

I will be gone from 1st till 21st Nov. Be jealous because I will be partying away in China. BYE :D

xoxo,
SQ

Fun in the sun on a schoolday.

TODAY WAS AWESOMEEEEE. :D

W Siman and the pretty elements of nature

My new boyfriend

So does everyone.

Goofy fun: result of pop culture.

My lovely friends

LUVVVVVVV,

SQ